Maybe I feel better when I buy a house. I did, I was miserable I sold it four years later.
Maybe I will feel better when I move. It doesn’t matter, nowhere feels like home.
Maybe I will feel better when I get a dog. It definitely helped, but some days are still filled with darkness, and a void I can never fill.
Maybe I’ll feel better when I get into a relationship. Most of the time those didn’t work, leaving me with years after healing the damage they caused.
Maybe I feel better when I work for somebody else even though my soul cries out to work for myself Maybe I will feel better when the sun comes out, and when the clouds disappear the heaviness will lift. Maybe I will feel better when I have money in the bank. I can buy things that I want not just things that I need.
Maybe I will feel better when I can decide what I want to do with my life, and choose only one thing. It should be enough, and the guilt of having multiple passions and projects doesn't overwhelm me. doing Maybe I will feel better when I finish things I start, only stopping because I get bored.
Maybe I will feel better when I have a more positive mindset maybe I’m a realist and a pessimist.
Maybe I will feel better when I can pack my bags and move to a different state or country, even though I despise change.
Maybe I will feel better when I stop I’m running away from myself, and running from everything that’s trying to scare me.
Maybe I will feel better when.....