5th Dimension loneliness - Insights and Reflections for the Awakened Multidimensional Soul Being
5th dimension of loneliness is not commonly spoken about in the spiritual community.
This is the shadow side of our collective awakening and part of our path the 5th Dimension. Sometimes it is necessary to be alone.
My path of loneliness and isolation
I have chosen to awaken before many of those around me, especially my family. It took until I was in my late 30s, but I got there in the end. A stubborn soul repeating many life lessons.
The feelings surrounding loneliness and isolation have been a constant theme throughout my childhood and into adult life.
The one that feels like she doesn't belong in her family or this existence, even this planet feels strange. Many of us awakened souls feel that home is not here, but elsewhere.
However, we are also guided that we are to find a home within us. I feel that there is some truth to that, but I also am aware that my soul has travelled many lifetimes and a sense of unfinished business before I do in fact “go home”.
My heart and soul feel weighed down with trauma from past incarnations, this I know for sure. I am a past life healer, I have accessed my Akashic records and have done so for others for visions of past lives.
The black sheep and introvert
The self-recognised rebellious black sheep of my family and my inquisitive nature much to the annoyance of my parents when I questioned the catholic religion and teachings rattled the very upbringing that I was to follow.
I have always had a different way of thinking. It was always shunned and disregarded because it wasn't the norm. I pushed boundaries. I do not like being put into a box or lugged with a big box of expectations that have nothing to do with me or who I am.
Granted I am an introvert and a homebody so those reasons can seem to those on the outside that I am a recluse. When in fact I am conserving and safe keeping my energy for things, places or people that I value.
At times when the energy is high or unstable, it is an intuitive nudge that I receive that guides me to remain indoors as a hermit or the same nudge telling me not to go to a certain place or event.
The 3D physical light body
On your ascension path, you can feel misunderstood by people in your community who are asleep while being understood by those in the spiritual community. It is an energetic ping pong as you dance between the 3rd, 4th 5th dimensions or even higher.
Not just emotional, isolation extends into your physical body. Hanging on while your higher self is anchored to source as it takes you through experiences already agreed upon as part of your soul contract.
The physical also experiences energy waves with different levels of intensity at any given time. As the energy is absorbed within it removes the 3D density it has accumulated over many lives and installs a new crystalline energy system.
A DNA structure is like a computer hard drive always pressing the restart button with each integration.
Your body is continuously integrating upgrades and new template downloads ready to come online at any time. Memories are brought to the surface to be remembered and acknowledged and you decipher what is relevant and what can be left behind.
You feel isolated more so when these energy shifts occur because of the level it affects your body. We join Facebook groups that we feel are our soul family. Like a rehab group, we are all sympathizing with each other and sharing wisdom and guidance where we can.
Some days you feel okay and you can ride it out, other days you sit in the fetal position asking the universe, your guides to make it all stop. To stop the triggers, the shadow work and this feeling of isolation to leave.
The loneliness to disperse from our realities, to once again feel connected to ourselves, to others, the collective.
Your circle of friends is small in your real life, yet you are most likely part of groups on Facebook in the thousands. Quite strange to be connected and disconnected simultaneously.
Living a multidimensional reality
Duality still exists on a social and external level while on a soul level, the duality is a bit more merged and cohesive, well sometimes even then it can be worlds apart.
I know I am part of something bigger, but also feel disconnected. There have been many times wondering where I fit in. Very few understand the 5D vibration and frequency if you are not experiencing it first-hand.
Dating is hard, adding to the loneliness as I struggle to find a partner on my frequency, morals and values. As well as someone who is experiencing ascension the way I am.
I work in a 3D job even though I have a 5D spiritual business outside of my 9 to 5.
Struggled with the feeling of being "different" from most people I work with even though some understand what I do outside of my 9 to 5.
What also makes loneliness hard for me is that I also struggle to ask for help, especially when I feel lonely. Sometimes all I need is to talk to someone and offload the weight of my emotions out into the ether.
I get caught up in the false negative that people are too busy to have time for me, even though I am usually the person everyone goes to offload their weight.
I know that there are people who really are there for me but my ego starts being loud and then I usually retreat into myself.
I am still working on these aspects of myself, gaining more confidence to know that I can stand alone or when I am ready to ask for help.
Finding community
The key is to be okay with knowing this is all part of the process.
You are learning to just be-ing, a multidimensional being here on Earth. Being on your own while getting used to the idea that you are connected to something bigger than you.
Understanding ascension into 5D is like a walk up a steep hill.
At times you think you will give up you can't walk anymore, want to turn around and go back. You want someone to walk with you up this steep hill when in fact you have the universe within you guiding you forward step by step.
The walk of ascension in its times of loneliness is a guide to becoming more connected within and what is around outside of you, above you, and below you.
It's a time of feeling your way through those feelings of isolation and loneliness and a starting point to work out how you can become more connected to yourself and even your soul group or community.
Loneliness guides you to take this opportunity to learn about who you really are.
What to do when the loneliness hits
Call a friend.
Write yourself a letter
Find groups that are of a high vibration and lift you up.
Practice self-care, read a book, sit in the sun, and go for a walk.
Meditate in any way you feel is writing even a creative task is meditation.
If you feel guided to work on the shadow of loneliness journalling helps, discover where this loneliness has come from. Acknowledging the emotions you are experiencing in my opinion is enough. Bring them up to the surface and see them for what they really are, not what your ego wants you to believe.
A deep meditation connecting to your guides, and asking your higher self to bring forward aspects of your soul can help sort it all out. You might ask it - is it a limited belief? Is it a thought pattern you inherited, or did it come from abandonment? Is it from a traumatic experience?
Final thoughts
In a world filled with so many souls, the disconnect to be connected is something we all experience at one time or another.
When we meet others awakened or not with a unity consciousness it is only then we can dissolve the disconnect and loneliness with the collective while we are empathetic and kind to our own paths.
I guide you to lovingly and courageously embrace it all, regardless of how messy it gets.
It is all perfect.
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